open-apple z

you know you spend way too much time on a computer when you think that everything can be undone with two simple buttons. like when you are almost finished making a necklace and you realize that you bent something too far and the first thought that enters your mind isn't "oh fuck, i have to start this 45-minute project all over," but rather "ehh command z" followed by the even more frustrating realization "oh fuck, i have to start this 45-minute project all over."

then there are those insanely heart-wrenching situations you hear about from a friend. the kind where you wish god would hit command z. i received a horrible phone call from a dear friend last night that physically hurts my soul when i think about her and what has happened. it seems like just when i think this world can't get any more fucked up, that's when i get a phone call like this. my mind races with angry questions and my heart feels like it's on fire. how could life turn so bad for someone who doesn't deserve it? how will she ever heal or be the same? why did this have to happen? seriously god, can you please undo this?